Depression, dentist, mini-golf and go carts

Ugh - yesterday was a very bad day depression-wise. I was very close to shut-down all day, too, even slipped into it a few times. I was actually growling at DH last night at one point! I was at the lowest of lows.

I don't know why, but I woke up much better today... if you consider moderately depressed better, lol. It does not make sense to feel any better today... nothing has changed, other than my glands are swollen (which, I'd think, would make it worse not better). I have the dentist today - the last appt for the crown - so I would think that would make things worse, too. So, why is it better today? Weird. But, MIL is coming today, and if she is in a critical mood, that will change, lol.

DH is home today, too... he usually takes a few days off making long weekends during the summer instead of taking full weeks off - since we never go anywhere on holiday. A crowded house today!

We took the kids to play miniature golf and go on the go carts last night. It was not the ideal night to go since I was in such a bad mood, but I didn't care either. I didn't care about anything, to be honest. The kids seemed to have had a good time, though... except DD1 had a bit of a meltdown when she did so badly at mini-golf. She takes after me with mini-golf, that's for sure. Then, when we got home I was in such overload I felt like I was going to explode. I should not do much when I'm like that. After getting the kids a snack, I locked myself in my room and watched a movie instead.

I sure hope this is the last dentist appt for a looooong time! The TMJ got really bad last time; I ended up with a migraine - and that was just for the temporary which is usually the correct height. This time I'm getting the finished crown, which will NOT be the perfect height and I will have to get used to the new bite or wear it down with use. Typically (I know since I have 2 other crowns) I will be having very bad TMJ and migraines for at least 1-2 weeks. I really hate crowns.

Wish me luck!