My Twilight obsession has increased dramatically... if I graphed these things I'm pretty sure it would be going up at the same exact pace as my anxiety level - possibly my subconscious trying to protect my mind from going bonkers?
I'm now on several Twilight forums, mostly lurking. The couple of posts I've made haven't gone over very well, so I think I'll be lurking more than posting from now on! For example, I mentioned that they made Bella look too good in the photos/trailers I've seen - she is supposed to be literally falling apart and in the book not only does she mention how horrible she looks, but all the other characters do, as well. Um... I do NOT think I should have said that on the forum I said it on. Oh well. I'll just keep my mouth shut and read!
Not that I'm really super interested in what most of them say - most of it is about how "hot" the actor who plays Edward is, and if you've paid any attention to my ramblings on this subject in the past you'd know that I don't think he is anywhere near as gorgeous as Edward is supposed to be in the books (though the actor is nice looking - and really they could never find a male in existence who IS as gorgeous as Edward is supposed to be lol)... alternately they'll post on how "hot" the guy who plays Jacob is.
Nor am I on the forums to find out the latest gossip on the actors themselves. To me, digging into the personal lives of the actors of my favorite stories ruins the "magic" of the movies - makes them less... I cannot find the word for it... not "real" but I guess that is the closest word that I can think of.
And, yes, btw, I do know these stories are NOT real - I'm not that autistic... though the level of autism I am is probably fueling the obsession as well, lol
I'm really on the forums looking for news and photos of the movie that's about to come out in November and the filming of the 3rd book, which is going on now. They've already even got some stuff about the 4th book's future filming out there... and photos of Bella's wedding dress (gorgeous).
I've also taken to collecting Twilight stationery on my email program. Now... really... WHEN am I ever going to use any of these Twilight stationeries? Nobody I know IRL likes Twilight and mostly I email people I know IRL. So this makes no sense. But, since when do the collections of people with autism make sense, right? I guess when I look at it in that light, it is better I collect computer stationery that only take up bits on my hard drive than something that takes up a lot of room IRL, right? (Ok, I feel better now.)
Anyway, I dropped off the kids at my mom's earlier for the last, last sleepover. I hope they do well, not like last time where DS had my mom up till 2am crying that he wanted to go home. She insisted on doing it one more time, though. I left about 2 hours ago and they have called at least 5 times since - so I'm not having very good feelings about this.
The reason I'm even mentioning this in my Twilight post is because now I have FREE TIME without any interuptions... and what I should be doing is the letters to the teachers... but what I AM doing is reading and writing about Twilight instead. And enjoying it immensely (which, btw, is also making me feel guilty ugh).
Maybe tomorrow morning I'll do what I'm supposed to do?
Ya think? 
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