Just don't care...

I'm in a bad place. I just don't care about almost anything. I have decided I'm not sending out cards for Christmas this year. I haven't done thing one about buying or informing anyone of even what the kids want. It is December 4th and everyone is asking me, but actually TELLING them what the kids want is too difficult. Everything is too difficult. Everything. Even taking a shower is too difficult to DO most days. I just don't care anymore. I have to at least get the kids a few things and tell people what they want or they will be very disappointed... I have to do this... but there is just no motivation or energy to actually DO it.

Reading other's blogs or forums is out completely. I just cannot manage it. I haven't even been reading my emails, other than scanning the names to see if any teachers wrote... and even then sometimes it takes a day or two to even open it.

So, that's been my life since I last wrote on here.