Update again

Time for a vent update... I'm going completely insane, ok? Completely!

So... here is the update...

DD1 has her period again, and it is not "on time"... I hope she isn't going to be like I was.

DS STILL has the 'runs'. There have only been 8 days since December 15th (NOT in a row, mind you) that he has not been sick multiple times a day. I have tried taking milk out of his diet, and lactose. Both seem to work about the same, so I think ONE of his problems is lactose - he only runs for the bathroom 3 times a day instead of 10. Obviously there is at least one other problem since he is still running! I don't know what that problem is, though, and the days he did not have a problem his diet was exactly the same as the days he has... so even the lactose really does not make sense... I mean on the 8 days he wasn't sick he had MORE milk than most of the other days that he was sick. I'm driving myself completely insane trying to figure this out, let alone what this is all doing to him.

DD2 still has "a huge ball of worry in her head that cannot be ignored". I'm not sure what to do about that. She has been confessing things that she feels guilty about - some of them from years ago - and I'm hoping that will help her, but she gets stuck and perseverates no matter how I try to help her rid herself of these thoughts.

DD2 and I are both sick right now, not sure what it is. She has a low-grade fever and gets nauseous from time to time, and starts shaking once in a while, but no other symptoms. I have a low-grade fever and my entire body hurts and I have very little energy. I'm starting to think I
might be working on the flu.

My FIL had a severe heart attack a few days ago and has been in the hospital since then. He had a pacemaker/defibrillator put in yesterday and today (maybe, if they have the time) they will test it and maybe he can go home soon. His heart stopped the day before yesterday and they had to use the defib paddles on him to bring him back... for some reason they say that is NOT a heart attack, I guess the logistics of it would be "heart failure"? Nobody bothered telling FIL that this happened until he started complaining about his skin (where they used the paddles) burning and itching! I just don't understand how they could NOT tell him he died! Now, after finding this out, he does remember it all happening, but before that he did not. Maybe they just thought he'd remember?

Anyway, this is causing some major flashbacks for me pertaining to my father - not only the cancer stuff but (you are probably not aware of this) he had major heart stuff going on for years before the cancer. Ironic that we always thought it would be his heart that "got" him, not cancer!

MIL is moving March 2nd. Ugh! They changed the date and made it sooner! With the kids being sick all the time, I have not been able to get there to help her pack at all. DH is supposed to go there tomorrow, and his brother came to town today to see their father so he will help pack as well. The rest of us were supposed to go, too, but since DD2 and I have a fever, she said just stay home and keep the other kids with me and send DH. I am feeling really guilty about not helping her. A while back she had planned a trip to Israel and chose to keep those plans, and she just got back yesterday... so now she is in a panic to come back and find they moved the date of the closings forward!

Meanwhile, I have not been able to get to therapy for months. I also think I'm becoming agoraphobic. Yes, that's right, the fear of leaving one's home, causing panic attacks at even the thought of it.

Fun, fun...